music by:
Drake Type Beat 2014 Instrumental ''Only The Best'' by
Penacho Beats
i do not own this beat.no copyright infringement intended. i just put it on a loop bcuz i think it's beautiful

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this rite here is tha real
& me? i cant even feel.
...not a thing.thankfully...
faithfully as i
pick petals
off.of.miracles
truly.i
love these biblical
devils
..tha sour taste of metal.
typical. 4 a girl like me
2 only fall n luv with only
tha
..ritual
not realizing ive simply reached
a whole n3w level
a brand n3w pinnacle
it's a pivotal moment
2 c tha demons' angelic blue eyes
hypocritical
habitually
criminal
mayb it's difficult.my
mind's completely black & white.so please believe.i
dont gotta b
political.im
purely
invisible
invincible
it's nothing short of being
essential
thanks 2 tha beauty
of
chemicals
this is no way 2 live.but at least life's now
liveable
smh despicable.but i
am my
own
individual
sinful.but like:
still u choose 2 miss
what i
consider critical
it's unforgivable.unforgettable
missing every point
except 4 tha principle
like
tha sharpest pencil
& i
do not need nor cheat nor use..bcuz.me?..im
a
lyrical
pistol
a missile
& smh i
dont even need a dumb.syllable.
busted blood vessels
by all means.i
adore being nothing less than special
only bcuz u're just 2 righteous.miserable.&.cynical
how typical & predictable
everyone is:
digitally
mental
&
so very minimal
..n my eyes alone..
no one's an individual
so i will try 2 b:
gentle..when saying this.but.
u can never know me, my lovely.truly.i will elude
u.use u.abuse u. then lose u like i already 4got a few.of u.
so y bend or bother.with being physical.spiritual.im
not looking.4 a feud.with u.truly.&.deeply.shoot
4 tha stars,my luv..haha plz do.& go ahead.b mystical. it's all tha same
when i own tha moon.lol.whimsical. but so easily
divisible.despicable.dispensable.believe me.u're just 2
pitiful.so y tha need 4 attention when u're already a
looney toon spectacle. i guess i could get physical.but
nstead:
saliva
on tha truth.&
saliva
on u 2..
.truly.
just hand me that noose
& if u really cared,u
wouldnt b
so weary 2 refuse
tha day im gone:
celebrate.dont cry....
toast me with wine &.imbibe, baby, imbibe.
& plz believe:
u've lost nothing & finally.i
get a piece of that pie
& sum peace of mind..
n tha
sky,
Orion's Belt came loose
& untied
so have faith knowing i
still have something 2 find
besides
'tha meaning of life'
&
exactly
y.so many memories
r intentionally left.behind.
sum of us r simply not meant 2 feel a thing.
& that my tender mon
                              ami
                                   is
                                     y
                                   i
                 am undefined
            but
       still
     im
me.
dearly,my luv,dearly,im just me.
& just like tha army,my luv,my above,
it's all that i can b.truly.&.deeply.
& im
very simply
just 'me', baby, im just 'me'..& im
not even sorry
n tha very least
   im
      me
& im
precious.but u
just dont want 2 c
bcuz none of u r better than me..
& could very simply..never. b.
& im str8 up always rite & baby,
that's 90 degrees
& that....is my guarantee minus tha geometry..
so no need
2 google 2 c
what im about 2 b
just hand me
                  my
                      wings
                              so i
                          can
                  finally
         breathe
                  finally
           dream
     n colors i
              can taste & bleed
but cannot c
              forcing me
2 stay alive
              n repetitive rings
keeping me, my mind
              & my green eyes
       4ever
blind.
       & i will kill myself everyday.mental.suicide.just.plz.allow.me.
tha decency.
                 2 die.
believe me
ive tried
rat poisoning & a loving O.D.
n a coma 4 seven days....that's a week.& me?
i was ready.so ready 2 leave
but my
mother's perfume.smelled like a devastating sigh.
gave me tha wrong impression.like.it was a sign.so i
opened my eyes.stayed alive.& im like:
mayb just mayb
it very simply just wasnt my time....smh i was tricked bcuz how wrong was i.
& with no lite, baby, not a flicker n site..i
climbed
all fucking nite..out from tha fucking nside.opening my eyes..& nstantly i
felt hot waves of regret & wished i
had just followed my own advice: 'im never more alive until im.
                                                                                   feeling myself die.'
& i
was rite there. rite.
tha fuck there. never again will i
climb..i
wish 2 only b nclined 2 decide & i
only wish 2 decline.
btw, im
fucking fine.& dandy.i
just killed myself twice
this morning.
told u fools already:
mental suicide..& already glued
2 my
next try.& it's finally
'goodnite blue skies'
& this, my lovely, is obviously:
me saying:
'goodbye'
singing 2 tha moon.my.sweet serenade.my adored symphony.my loving lullaby.
no more life lines.i
swear
on
my
eyes.
this time im
going 2 fucking die.im
doing it rite.
& this is tha real.no fucking lie.
a train calling my name will do.just fine.
bcuz again russian roulette's not a very nice surprise.
& im
biting
this bullet myself.without getting hi.& i
dont need a 9 or a 45
.truly.&.deeply.
'buh-bye'
a train.calling my name.will do just.fine..plz believe.
who am i
2 b fickle & picky.
y am i
'breathing'
& y am i
'feeling'
& what am i
'seeing'
& y do my
tears.keep.bleeding.
fuck.this.glass.ceiling.
set me free..i can only think
n & out of this beat. & i
have risen.
.lucifer. tha angel of lite.
cant outshine if im
a prism..my patterned prison.
& im out bitches..so..peace..2 all u fucktards & freaks.
btw, im
tha one n hell u'll greet.looking up from kissing my ass
& then.my.
.very.precious..feet..
~ peace ~