I
alone
imagine
the most cherished
 blessings
would be
..of
understanding a message
so silent
the answers are actually
hidden
    inside
       of
the question.
the confession.
   I
alone
imagine
the most cherished
.heritage
would be of my
once
beloved
marriage
please....I beg of you
a gun carriage
allow me to imbibe this
bullet beverage
   I
alone
imagine
the most cherished
  perish
is
just 2 get hi..
   .and.
stay stoned.
as a sort of merit.or demerit.
you can pick how many karats.
no matter how hard I try
to say goodbye
I cannot inherit
a.life
living like a parrot
coherent
    but
repeating
the same damn ballad
.and wreckage
watching the same damn epic.sinking ship
.& leverage
   I
alone....
imagine
the most cherished
fairness
is only.while
   I
..am..
this
wretchedness.
listening to the same flutes with a clarinet's habits addicts
pitch.pinch.panics
every other instrument lying dead in the trumpets' ditch and damage
My Only One, My All, still I
can see us tearing-up
in
Paris
while I follow u still
thru every desert.& Dead Sea
embarrassed
an
intended
miscarriage
parents
         sharing.disparage
   I
alone
imagine
the most cherished
face
staring blank and erased
in devastation....again and again
and again in space
  I
alone
imagine
the most cherished
          ....will....
save me please from my own sins
save me from my own bloody syringe
I've come undone unhinged
yet somehow
still
  I
alone
know 'uncherished'
is NOT a word so 'misfit'
but it's what I think of myself
 and
   I
cringe
binge
infringe
inside of Satan's trench-coat.drenched
because
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
   Is rite now when I
don't bother
nor
flinch
nor
bend
seeing the same image.vision.so vivid
The God Of This Age....
& so still I accept
that I forever.am his
wench
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
living....livid
is in
liquid vintage
 minutes
ceasing 2 actually
     coexist
every cubic inch
every rhythm
wanting to flirt & kiss
hell's abyss
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
Lucifer's revenge
I cannot avenge
now
guess who makes that call
guess who collects hell's rent
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
   is me
      & it is eye
who
makes that decision
         & don't forget about
that expense
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
         Is when I
must comprehend
   and repent
but my knees wont bend
buckled
 in cement
dusty and full of fish and lint
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
is the way I
simply just
      'fit'
like
The Devil's own
allen wrench
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
is how easy it is for me to
balance
any Hell Fire's fence
and like
       it's
           nothing but a thing
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
  bits & pieces with.more bits
is me swallowing
Lucifer's stench
   I
alone
imagine
the most uncherished
is me
  sitting
         on
            that
   bench
While The Angel Of Light
pretends
      I
cannot imagine
      I
can only dream
   yet I
refuse to think
      I
deserve to be
   free
believe me
      I
  .alone.
  know
     I
 belong
    to
the
     low.
below
the
    low.
and     realllllly       reallllllly

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R.I.P
Deceased

Sarah M. Ahmed 3 months old March 2003 - May 2003

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